So, my to do lists seem to have the same thing on them over and over. It never seems to end and it never seems like I actually end up doing it. For months now I’ve been trying to get the time to go over to the Social Security office to have my last name changed back to my maiden name, but between my two little peanuts, school and the two jobs I currently hold, there never seems to be a good time, or even enough of it rather, to actually get it done…and this has been going on since April. Time flys SO fast and it’s been so difficult lately to get anything done that needs to be done. But finally, FINALLY, yesterday I was able to snag a couple hours to myself before 4pm to be able to do this.
The combination of finishing something that has been on my plate for so long, and taking that final step of this crazy thing called divorce, really lifts that heavy weight of my to do list…which is perched so quietly on my shoulders. Not only did I complete that, but I also had my tetanus shot done so I can continue on and finish my associates for the fall. Within two precious hours, I was able to cut that silly to do list of important things in half. Just two more forms to file and send out and that’ll be finished up, just in time to have a few days to spend with my wonderful John, Mal, Ari, Ma, Dad, Bill, Aaron, Meg and her niece and little brother.
I am such a scatterbrain it even drives me nuts. So to accomplish just four, seemingly simple tasks, is just so motivating and wonderful for me. The beauty of to do lists for someone like me, is that it’s right there on paper. A hard copy of the things that float in and out of my brain throughout the day. I know I always have one, and I know what’s on it, but when it comes time to make that phone call, or send out that letter, I seem to remember to do it when I can’t. Like right in the middle of work, or after 5 o’clock when the place I needed to call was already closed. The only thing I need to get into the habit of is actually putting that to do list somewhere where I’ll see it throughout the day. Normally I write it up and it’s neatly tucked into, or even just written into, my journal. Although I carry it around all the time, and write in it a few times each day, I’m always flipping past that silly list and completely remembering it at the absolute worst time.
…see where I frustrate myself? lol
So now I’m motivated once again, chopping down that list, one, or even two, things at a time and finally even finishing things I should have done a few years ago! Looking back at how I was in the early years of college to the aftermath of a failed marriage, I’m finally back to square one and moving on. If I just keep chipping away at my to do list, following the financial plan I have installed for myself and keep rocking the socks off school, I’ll be where, just a few years ago, I never thought I’d be. Frustration is a motivator and someone very wise told me, “if you get too comfortable with where you are, you’ll never get to where you want to go”…..how true is that?
Peace, love and to do lists for the scatterbrained goober,
<3 Lindsay JOHNSON 
